Sick of dreaming!

This has all started as I have many times come on the computer after waking up from yet another night of dream after dream. My family, including husband of seven years, knows all too well what my nights are like. Dreams full of strange houses, that once your in the attic you can't move to close to the edge of the house or it will topple over because it is sitting on a mountain peak, or dreams that seem to glide into one another like the six tornadoes that are coming at you and suddenly it doesn't matter because your in another state with different people (people you know but do not look like themselves) and then you are all walking through your highschool hallways on horseback, and then your back to the tornadoes and your yelling at people as they are about to hit, then your back somewhere else in another house with many rooms playing tag. Did that sentence seem to go on and on? Well, so do my dreams. So much so that as all people who "suffer" like I do know exactly what I mean when I say I could write MANY movies based only on my dreams. (And they would probably be better than a lot of movies currently out!)

I have had this "problem" since I can remember. In highschool I would go back to sleep after my morning shower and enjoy a half hour mind movie, and fall asleep in class for only five minutes but be startled upon waking because I was dreaming at my desk. I can take a ten minute nap on the couch and tell you some wild dreams, or even take what is on the TV (because I can still hear it in my sleep) and suddenly I am dreaming what I am hearing. (Makes for some funny dreams if there are cartoons on!)

I have had three sleep studies done in the last ten years, and no one can explain why I do not feel rested. The last one had me hoping I had narcolepsy since at least then I would understand why I was always dreaming upon falling asleep, but unfortunatly I was not in REM sleep upon falling asleep and therefore not narcoleptic. UGGG! If I could just stop dreaming!

What people who do not dream like this do not understand is that when your busy dreaming ALL NIGHT, you feel so un-rested when waking. I have yet to find doctors or answers to this, but I can wake up crying, or heart pounding because I was scared, or very excited from whatever was going on in my dream. The chemicals that are released during this emotions are released during my dreaming, so even though I may not have actually physically ran two miles to get away from the pack of wolves that were stocking me, my body feels like I did. There is no break, no rest from the mind. I just want my brain to sleep for the night!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am starting this blog because of those who have night after night like this along with me. I hear your fustration, because I am there too. No one else understands, and no one is willing to research what is going on with us. Together I am hoping we can find some answers to how to get a good night sleep. A rested, peaceful, recharging nights sleep. Sounds simple enough, yet night after night, decade after decade I still can't get rested.

Oh, and btw it is not due to apnea, or anything like that. Although my last sleep study test showed I did have some upper airway resistance, these problems have been with me since I was a kid, and the first two sleep studies did not indicate this problem. So the sleep doctor who doesn't care to listen to me or take the time to investigate something other than his textbook answers can kiss my you know what!